I wish I had a magic 8 ball that would truly tell me the future. Losing my job has pushed me into decision making mode about what to do with my life…and honestly, I don’t know if I am ready. I have always been one of those people that just…well, landed. When I was a kid, I never wanted to “be” anything when I grew up; not like the other kids. And that kind of played out as an adult, I just drifted, but I have always been so fortunate and landed in the right place at the right time. Even my last job, when I was laid off from BofA, I found a new job within 30 days at Citi. In both cases, I didn’t have mortgage experience but my leadership skills carried me in. I want to have faith that what I bring to the table now will also carry me somewhere. Just where?
As long as I was Citi, I really didn’t have to think about what I wanted to do next. As much as I hated my job, I was comfortable; I was making a decent wage and for the most part, I knew what I needed to do. I had a great team of guys that I liked working with and I think they liked working with me too so unless someone pushed me, I probably wasn’t going to jump. So they pushed.
I love managing a team and you know what? I’m good at it. As much as I say all the time that I don’t like people, I’m pretty fortunate that people like me.
So all in all, I’m still doing ok after being laid off, but now I have to figure out what I want to be when I grow up.