I don’t need a personal trainer as much as I need someone to follow me around and slap unhealthy foods out of my hand. ~Pinterest
I got on the scale today. ZERO loss. Not even an ounce. Are you effen kidding me?? A girl can only take so much. I need to see a loss – it helps motivate me and when I don’t see a loss, I get super discouraged and its easier for me to want to give up. Historically that’s where I fail, I give up on myself.
I need to stay with it, this Stella needs her groove back. I’ve said it before, but I haven’t dated in almost a year…and I don’t feel attractive enough to be out with a man. It so weird, as big as I am, I feel invisible. When I am out with my girlfriends, no one sees me – invisible.
So, I wrote most of that this morning, but something weird just happened, I feel…good. More energy than I’ve had in a while, even though I am recovering from the flu. Could be my imagination or maybe, that no carb high is finally kicking in? I even tried two new cauliflower recipes. I am really craving something crunchy, salty…I just haven’t been satisfied at all this week with the foods I have been eating. Again, I think some of it is because Ive been sick, but maybe I am turning the corner?
The recipes I tried were both on Pinterest. The first one is a Cauliflower hashbrown type thing, you know the things you get from BoJangles, the BoRounds? Yes, like that. Not as good, for sure, but I think I would make them again (*recipe at the back of the book) with some modifications. For dinner tonight, I might toast one or two up and then crack a fried egg over it, now that sounds pretty good!
The other recipe was a play on chicken wings, but with roasted cauliflower florets. Again, not exactly what I was hoping for but I think with some modifications, this could be pretty good too.
All in all, I am ending this day feeling pretty positive, even though weigh in sucked ass. Today I am thinking that I will be up for a walk tomorrow…we shall see what tomorrow looks like.